Progesterone Fuzziness

Today is day 7 of progesterone. I'm definitely feeling better than I was last week (no nausea, and only mild headaches) but I am feeling more fuzzy-headed than ever. Everything seems to be taking forever. I have energy, but I can't concentrate on anything, and I'm so absent-minded that I can't actually trust anything I'm accomplishing, anyway.

I keep thinking through scenarios in my mind. When is my period likely to start? If the Clomid works, when will the IUI be? What phase will I be in when we're with family over Thanksgiving? How do I explain Clomid side effects to family without telling them everything? Should I bring a pregnancy test to Thanksgiving, or is it better not to find out until I'm home? If the Clomid doesn't work this cycle, when can we try again? Blah blah blah.

I'm also obsessively looking things up on the internet. There's only so many articles I can read about side effects, odds of conception, ovulation problems, and unresponsive ovaries, and honestly I'm not learning anything new at this point, but I can't ... stop ... searching. The combination of my "focus" on fertility stuff and my lack of true focus on everything else means that I'm getting squat done at work.

Bring on the Progesterone

Period Watch continues. Today was Day 4 of my 10-day progesterone protocol, to try to force my period. We postponed the start of the medication by about a week so that we could be sure that I wouldn't be ovulating while S. was laid up after his knee surgery next week. S. did his tests on Monday (his first time making love to a plastic cup.) He clearly did not enjoy the experience. I "helped" as much as I could, though I failed in my mission to buy him some porn, since I think he was a little disappointed that he didn't get to go into a masturbation room with lots of "reading" materials, like they always allude to in the movies. But honestly, I think that the blood test freaked him out even more (he hates needles, and has been known to faint at the site of his own blood -- yes, he's my macho man!).

From what I've read, progesterone has the mildest side effects of all the fertility-related drugs that may be in my future, but I'm already complaining (I've also already apologized to S. for any monsterously bitchy behavior that he'll have to deal with). I've been nauseous every afternoon since starting the drugs, and lightheaded throughout the day. Trouble concentrating. Forgetfull. Or maybe I'm just distracted.... When I picked up the clomid at the drug store, so I'd have it for when I needed it, I asked the pharmacist about side effects. She looked at my sympathetically and said, "women do not have fun on this drug." She listed off headaches, nausea, vision problems, dizziness, ... but then said "but it is very effective!" and warned me about multiple pregnancies. But for now, the progresterone. One step at a time.